I wish I could write lucidly
It sometimes hurts to write honestly of myself
I yearn to write correctly
I loathe my ineffectual words & admire those of others
I'm sometimes viewed as a recluse
I love my family
I'm usually quiet but have many thoughts swimming in my mind
I don't always answer deep questions right away
I'm not comfortable in large crowds
I often thumb through my collection of antique bibles in 12 different languages
I tend to have a short attention span
I surf very confidently - one of the few things I'm confident of
I dream of leaving the big city far behind
I prefer to snack rather than dine
I don't own a PDA device as I refuse to be tethered
I seldomly watch TV
I'd say that my favorite movie is A River Runs Though It
I could spend hours in a book store
I enjoy riding my motorcycle along the coast on a sunny Sunday afternoon
I take my dog Chip for a walk each night then spoil him w/ treats
I sometimes wonder why God loves me
I'm hoping to climb Kilamanjaro in the summer of 2010 - all depends on the market
I have a tendency to speak in a condescending manner when I'm annoyed
I wish I had a true friend who would listen when I express thought & emotion
I cherish running at 3am along the beach
I can be complicated but I'm a product of childhood experiences (aren't we all!)
I really enjoy reading YOUR Blogs. Really, I do. I admire the folks who write in here.
I really wrote this for myself as I was sitting here in my study pondering - Who am I ? So, I just jotted a few random thoughts down and for some odd reason, I felt a pleasant ease. Hmmm.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friends, wine and a surprising deep query .....
I was asked (due in part of my faith) if I think God really cares about people. Well, let's see.
It seems to me God tends to get a bad rap because of our own misguided deeds. People starving in the world "How can God let that happen?" Children suffering of starvation; Same response Increasing violence in the world "Why doesn't God stop it" on and on and on the questions came coming.
WHY GOD WHY ?
Valid questions indeed but if we really examine each situation closely, perhaps some of these are direct byproducts of our own selfish attitudes and actions. Do we all have a little Veruca Salt in us?
Hey, what about me ?
I want my share .....
But I too deserve .....
It's not fair that they .....
How come I can't ........
What do you mean I can't have it now ?
I can't even imagine what God endures on a daily basis. Consider some prayers God may hear on a daily basis;
A prayer from someone complaining about not having a mate and how unfair it is
A prayer from a mother beseeching God for food for her starving children
A prayer from another to win the lottery and promising to give some back IF they win
A prayer from a child asking that daddy won't hit mommy & me anymore
A prayer from someone seeking strength when they just found out they have cancer
A prayer for that new fancy car they've been wanting for so long
Thank goodness that none of us are the recipient of these prayers as we would use our own judgements on which prayer to answer and which ones to deny. Thankfully God loves each one of us and regardless of our short-comings, He wants nothing but the very best for each of us. That doesn't mean He will always say yes or say yes in OUR timing. I think we sometimes view God no different than a waiter in a restaurant. We give our order and if it doesn't come as soon as we expected it we tend to become frustrated, even angered, looking around for the waiter to ask what's taking so long with my order. We cannot see what goes on in the kitchen - all the preparations etc .... Perhaps it takes a bit longer to prepare our order to make sure it's done just right so that we may fully enjoy it. Could the same apply with God ? Making sure all is prepared properly for our complete enjoyment of God's blessing?
I suppose with all of the current events in the world it's easy to blame God. After all He is God and He can stop everything right ? Well, true but then our limited ability cannot see the full purposes of God. I do believe we have the ability to use prayer and action to make noticeable differences in the world. We cannot rid the world of all its problems but it seems to me that each one of us can contribute by taking the time to love & help others where we can. I suppose the best we can bestow to one another is unconditional love & forgiveness (which can prove to be too difficult for some) thus slowly pull away from our own wants in life and allowing a peace that surpasses all understanding to imbue our every-day walk in life.
I reckon some will not like agree with my view and may suggest that I'm somewhat narrow-minded but that's okay. Really, I'm okay with that because we're all entitled to our opinions and beliefs however, I love God and I can't help but sigh when I hear of all the things we blame God for. It's as though I picture God saying to deafened ears "I love you all so much and these horrible things in the world are not my doing or my wish for you but it doesn't mean that I can't use it for good either". When I read of God's love and purposes for us, it's laced with love and peace and though sometimes we encounter rough times, sometimes the reaction is it's God's fault. We cannot see or comprehend God's purposes; we can speculate but that's as far as it can go and no matter how much we validate it in our own mind it doesn't mean we're right. I try earnestly to rely on Faith.
This piece took some thought as I had to start with the man in the mirror (sorry but MJ for stealing your line) and view my own faults and frailties. God help and forgive us all for the many injustices we seem to inflict upon each other.
Prescott & Nadia; The summary above hopefully provides my perspective on the some of the questions you posed a few nights ago over that fine bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon. I'm sorry it took me a while to respond but some questions I cannot answer on-the-spot without taking time to ponder such deep questions so that I can hopefully tender a seemingly lucid response.
Best,
It seems to me God tends to get a bad rap because of our own misguided deeds. People starving in the world "How can God let that happen?" Children suffering of starvation; Same response Increasing violence in the world "Why doesn't God stop it" on and on and on the questions came coming.
WHY GOD WHY ?
Valid questions indeed but if we really examine each situation closely, perhaps some of these are direct byproducts of our own selfish attitudes and actions. Do we all have a little Veruca Salt in us?
Hey, what about me ?
I want my share .....
But I too deserve .....
It's not fair that they .....
How come I can't ........
What do you mean I can't have it now ?
I can't even imagine what God endures on a daily basis. Consider some prayers God may hear on a daily basis;
A prayer from someone complaining about not having a mate and how unfair it is
A prayer from a mother beseeching God for food for her starving children
A prayer from another to win the lottery and promising to give some back IF they win
A prayer from a child asking that daddy won't hit mommy & me anymore
A prayer from someone seeking strength when they just found out they have cancer
A prayer for that new fancy car they've been wanting for so long
Thank goodness that none of us are the recipient of these prayers as we would use our own judgements on which prayer to answer and which ones to deny. Thankfully God loves each one of us and regardless of our short-comings, He wants nothing but the very best for each of us. That doesn't mean He will always say yes or say yes in OUR timing. I think we sometimes view God no different than a waiter in a restaurant. We give our order and if it doesn't come as soon as we expected it we tend to become frustrated, even angered, looking around for the waiter to ask what's taking so long with my order. We cannot see what goes on in the kitchen - all the preparations etc .... Perhaps it takes a bit longer to prepare our order to make sure it's done just right so that we may fully enjoy it. Could the same apply with God ? Making sure all is prepared properly for our complete enjoyment of God's blessing?
I suppose with all of the current events in the world it's easy to blame God. After all He is God and He can stop everything right ? Well, true but then our limited ability cannot see the full purposes of God. I do believe we have the ability to use prayer and action to make noticeable differences in the world. We cannot rid the world of all its problems but it seems to me that each one of us can contribute by taking the time to love & help others where we can. I suppose the best we can bestow to one another is unconditional love & forgiveness (which can prove to be too difficult for some) thus slowly pull away from our own wants in life and allowing a peace that surpasses all understanding to imbue our every-day walk in life.
I reckon some will not like agree with my view and may suggest that I'm somewhat narrow-minded but that's okay. Really, I'm okay with that because we're all entitled to our opinions and beliefs however, I love God and I can't help but sigh when I hear of all the things we blame God for. It's as though I picture God saying to deafened ears "I love you all so much and these horrible things in the world are not my doing or my wish for you but it doesn't mean that I can't use it for good either". When I read of God's love and purposes for us, it's laced with love and peace and though sometimes we encounter rough times, sometimes the reaction is it's God's fault. We cannot see or comprehend God's purposes; we can speculate but that's as far as it can go and no matter how much we validate it in our own mind it doesn't mean we're right. I try earnestly to rely on Faith.
This piece took some thought as I had to start with the man in the mirror (sorry but MJ for stealing your line) and view my own faults and frailties. God help and forgive us all for the many injustices we seem to inflict upon each other.
Prescott & Nadia; The summary above hopefully provides my perspective on the some of the questions you posed a few nights ago over that fine bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon. I'm sorry it took me a while to respond but some questions I cannot answer on-the-spot without taking time to ponder such deep questions so that I can hopefully tender a seemingly lucid response.
Best,
Friday, March 13, 2009
A lighter side on Pay-Day Friday !
SUCCESS
At age 4 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 success is . . . having friends.
At age 16 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 20 success is . . . having sex.
At age 35 success is . . . having money.
At age 50 success is . . . having money.
At age 60 success is . . . having sex.
At age 70 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 75 success is . . having friends.
At age 80 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
MARRIAGE:
He said - Shall we try swapping positions tonight honey?
She said - That's a great idea... you go in the kitchen and do the dishes
while I sit on the sofa w/ the remote and fart.
ENGLISH REVIEWED
Let's face it -- English is a mad language. There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.
We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig. And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese?
Doesn't it seem odd that you can make amends but not one amend, that you comb thru annals of history, but not a single annnal? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps you bote your tongue?
Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Send shipments by car and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?
How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while quite a lot and quite a few are alike?
Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a sung hero or experienced requited love? Have you ever run into someone who was combobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?
One must marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which an alarm clock goes off by turning on.
English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race(which, of course, isn't a race at all). That's why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it ... Indeed a mad world !
A lighter side for a "Pay-Day Friday" .....the above is not my work of course. Had I the time and effort to conjure these up I would have been found in my chair w/ a self-inflicted gunshot wound to my melon .... CHEERS
At age 4 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 success is . . . having friends.
At age 16 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 20 success is . . . having sex.
At age 35 success is . . . having money.
At age 50 success is . . . having money.
At age 60 success is . . . having sex.
At age 70 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 75 success is . . having friends.
At age 80 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
MARRIAGE:
He said - Shall we try swapping positions tonight honey?
She said - That's a great idea... you go in the kitchen and do the dishes
while I sit on the sofa w/ the remote and fart.
ENGLISH REVIEWED
Let's face it -- English is a mad language. There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.
We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig. And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese?
Doesn't it seem odd that you can make amends but not one amend, that you comb thru annals of history, but not a single annnal? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps you bote your tongue?
Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Send shipments by car and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?
How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while quite a lot and quite a few are alike?
Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a sung hero or experienced requited love? Have you ever run into someone who was combobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?
One must marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which an alarm clock goes off by turning on.
English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race(which, of course, isn't a race at all). That's why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it ... Indeed a mad world !
A lighter side for a "Pay-Day Friday" .....the above is not my work of course. Had I the time and effort to conjure these up I would have been found in my chair w/ a self-inflicted gunshot wound to my melon .... CHEERS
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Adieu !
I believe it is time for me to bid farewell and to say & type no more thus vanish beneath the underbrush of a quiet moonlit night ....... In other words - I'm gonna lay low for a bit. Blogging is fun but I need to finish my DAG GUM book I started writing two years ago ...
Saturday, March 7, 2009
SATURDAY MORNING RANT ......
Pissy, Pissy Pissy !!
Yup, that's my morning thus far. Maybe if I stop and think (hard as it may seem) for a moment perhaps I can uncover the impetus of my sour mood. Hmmmmm, Let see, is it;
Because I didn't run this morning?
The surf sucked and I really wanted to paddle out ?
I have no motivation to study for the stupid LEED exam (don't get me started on this one!)
I'm out of spray cheese and Dr.Pepper (DP = Nectar of the Gods)
I'm surrounded by folks who are spoon-fed their values & intelligence from PR firms & TV
My contact lenses are dried out !
My motorcycle is STILL in the shop (could have one custom made by now!!)
Stone Soup was a bit dull this morning (a comic strip in the LA Times)
I often feel I reside in a society of Veruca Salt's
EVERYBODY STOP TALKING ALL AT ONCE ! (thank you)
I don't wanna study today ... I just wanna lounge around in my underpants & eat snacky foods
Sometimes our actions re-confirm my sick notion that people are simply Darwinism-In-Reverse !
Someone left a mere strip of tissue when it was my turn for the toilet
OR
perhaps I'm just being an ASS ...... No worries, I'll build a bridge and get over it soon enough. In the meantime, does anyone have a pacifer and warm milk ? CHEERS !
Yup, that's my morning thus far. Maybe if I stop and think (hard as it may seem) for a moment perhaps I can uncover the impetus of my sour mood. Hmmmmm, Let see, is it;
Because I didn't run this morning?
The surf sucked and I really wanted to paddle out ?
I have no motivation to study for the stupid LEED exam (don't get me started on this one!)
I'm out of spray cheese and Dr.Pepper (DP = Nectar of the Gods)
I'm surrounded by folks who are spoon-fed their values & intelligence from PR firms & TV
My contact lenses are dried out !
My motorcycle is STILL in the shop (could have one custom made by now!!)
Stone Soup was a bit dull this morning (a comic strip in the LA Times)
I often feel I reside in a society of Veruca Salt's
EVERYBODY STOP TALKING ALL AT ONCE ! (thank you)
I don't wanna study today ... I just wanna lounge around in my underpants & eat snacky foods
Sometimes our actions re-confirm my sick notion that people are simply Darwinism-In-Reverse !
Someone left a mere strip of tissue when it was my turn for the toilet
OR
perhaps I'm just being an ASS ...... No worries, I'll build a bridge and get over it soon enough. In the meantime, does anyone have a pacifer and warm milk ? CHEERS !
Friday, March 6, 2009
Poli Pop
Seems that folks in these parts yesterday (3/5) were really caught up with the Prop 8 issue because of the hearings with the California Supreme Court and it appears the court is on the periphery of upholding the initiative considering that it achieved the required 52% of the votes last November. Seems everyone I encountered yesterday had a strong opinion on the issue. Some were very vocal. Some of the opinions I heard had merit and seemed lucid enough while some were up on their soap box pontificating to any available ear. Candidly, I loathe when folks start in with their half-informed rants when I didn't ask for their opinion in the first place. Anyway, I was continually asked what my position was and where I stand on it. I declined each time I was asked as I didn’t see it necessary to engage in some sort of debate, not to mention they would quickly lose ground with me thanks to years spent on my college Forensics Team. Truthfully, I'd just like to see the end of the media blitz surrounding this issue. So, instead of answering anyone I decided to write my view here since my entries usually go unread. I'm in favor of Prop 8. I believe that marriage is between a man and a woman. Aside from pro-creation, I believe this is it was always intended to be, however I do not harbor any ill feelings towards any person(s) who earnestly wish for a reversal of Prop 8.
There was much debate over inalienable rights in regards to its specific definition towards a specific application. It was pleasing to hear the justices speaking in unison that these inalienable rights are afforded to all citizens through a democratic process in which we the people have the right to govern ourselves though our party affiliation and government leaders we appoint through the voting process. It seems to me that one of the greatest inalienable rights is our right to vote. If Prop 8 is reversed my view would remain the same however I would accept it, without regret, as part of our democratic process.
I sincerely hope this matter concludes soon because it seems both sides of the initiative have fervently spent and continue to spend a considerable amount of money & resources on this issue. Seems to me that that we should apply the same amount of attention on aiding homeless & hungry children, battered women and children and a host of other humanitarian issues where real assistance & resources are greatly needed.
I hope that this is not construed as hateful because I am not. Candidly, I am saddened and very embarrassed by some folks who parade under the guise of ‘Christianity’ and conduct themselves in mean and disrespectful ways towards opponents of Prop 8. ALL folks should be treated with much love, kindness and respect regardless of their views because I don’t recall reading any passages in scripture where Jesus was disparaging towards sinners He encountered.
In the end, though I agree with the Prop 8 initiative I cannot condone the radical things I heard yesterday from a few ‘conservatives' that I unfortunately encountered. With one particular group of folks that I know, they found it necessary to press me for some validation and input but the only response I could muster was “I don’t know about you folks but I recall reading a passage of scripture when Jesus said to the religious leaders of his time; ‘Let him who is without sin cast the first stone’ Needless to say, a hush fell over this pious group and faces suddenly became somber. It amazes me how the name of Jesus will either cause a storm or calm a storm.
So, I merely smiled, wished them well and went humbly about my day. Gezz, I'm forever a dork.
There was much debate over inalienable rights in regards to its specific definition towards a specific application. It was pleasing to hear the justices speaking in unison that these inalienable rights are afforded to all citizens through a democratic process in which we the people have the right to govern ourselves though our party affiliation and government leaders we appoint through the voting process. It seems to me that one of the greatest inalienable rights is our right to vote. If Prop 8 is reversed my view would remain the same however I would accept it, without regret, as part of our democratic process.
I sincerely hope this matter concludes soon because it seems both sides of the initiative have fervently spent and continue to spend a considerable amount of money & resources on this issue. Seems to me that that we should apply the same amount of attention on aiding homeless & hungry children, battered women and children and a host of other humanitarian issues where real assistance & resources are greatly needed.
I hope that this is not construed as hateful because I am not. Candidly, I am saddened and very embarrassed by some folks who parade under the guise of ‘Christianity’ and conduct themselves in mean and disrespectful ways towards opponents of Prop 8. ALL folks should be treated with much love, kindness and respect regardless of their views because I don’t recall reading any passages in scripture where Jesus was disparaging towards sinners He encountered.
In the end, though I agree with the Prop 8 initiative I cannot condone the radical things I heard yesterday from a few ‘conservatives' that I unfortunately encountered. With one particular group of folks that I know, they found it necessary to press me for some validation and input but the only response I could muster was “I don’t know about you folks but I recall reading a passage of scripture when Jesus said to the religious leaders of his time; ‘Let him who is without sin cast the first stone’ Needless to say, a hush fell over this pious group and faces suddenly became somber. It amazes me how the name of Jesus will either cause a storm or calm a storm.
So, I merely smiled, wished them well and went humbly about my day. Gezz, I'm forever a dork.
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